Wednesday, March 09, 2005

hey people.
well..ive been having a blast this week.
been skipping school.din go yest.or today.or tmr.
even my teachers have given up on me..

yea.now that this last week is coming to an end.
i'll just say all that ive wanted to for quite awhile.

its been so hard to let go.
i know im gonna start crying again.
but it cant be helped.
all of sudden im getting to know all these crazy and wonderful pple.
and they're all gonna be in cj.
is heaven playing a trick on me.
just when i made the decision to leave..
he has to just put all these pple worth staying for.
but i cant go back in time.and i cant change my decision.
i know that im quite confirmed going to ac.
and yes.i cant help but be scared.

going to go thru the whole process again.
why didnt i choose to stay in cj where i know pple.
and where i love u guys SO much.
its because i know i'll regret it if i never gave ac a try.
i know that i'll never be able to leave with the 'what ifs'
and yes.because i was seriously unhappy once upon a time.
but that all seems so long ago.and honestly..
its no fight against all the great pple im gonna miss so much.

i havent been going to school.
im sorry nikki and brian.
i want to go too.
but i just cant bear going and seeing all of it.
knowing that soon i wont be a part of it any longer.
because i know that no matter how good life is in ac.
i'll always miss u guys.knowing that i was once part of it.
that i could walk freely in the school.
the fun i had.
the times ive spent at the grandstand.
how many friendships have been forged there.
and i'll just break down.

deep down.i love youu all.
and im surprised that im finding it so hard to let go.
in crescent.it was inevitable.
now i dont know if i made the right decision.

friday.
might be the last day i go to school.
but yes.i'll cherish it and i'll miss it.
sighh.
i wish it didnt have to come to this.
i just cant let go.

[timmy.elsa.alex.brandon.dalun]
these last few days with u guys have been unforgettable.
taka and e cine foodcourt where we left our names.
im sorry i only got to know u guys so late.
but im glad i did.
i will miss you guys so much.

[jacob.don.brendan.cedric.hiangtee] -sevenplusone.
i love u guys so much too.
for being so sweet and fun to be with.
i just cant put the fun we've had into words.

[1t35]
there were sad times.
but everything's ok now.
and all that's left are the happy and fun times we've had.
we reali are a great class.
im sorry i cant be part of it.

[everyone else ive met in cj]
im just sad i cant walk ard in school seeing u guys.
or shouting.or even whacking u all.
im gonna miss life in cj so much.
cos its the one and only.
never has there been a place like it.
and never will it be replaced.

[brian]
uve been the bestest pal a girl could ask for.
uve seen me thru my ups and downs.
and there have been more downs than ups for sure.
im SO glad and thankful i made a fren like u in cj.
i'll miss calling u during ur street soccer breaks.
disturbing u and making fun of u.
doing stupid stuff and talking nonsense during lectures.
im sorry that i might not be a good friend at times.
or very encouraging.
oh gosh.u just called me.
sighh.brian.im gonna miss u.

[nik and daph]
ive been thru so much with the both of u guys.
i reali cant imagine being in a diff sku.
but yea.im so sorry.
i really am.
i dont want to split up from u guys at all.
i really dont.
i just love u both so much.

oh gosh.im dying.
cant type.bye

8:18 PM