Tuesday, May 10, 2005

been thinking alot the past few days.
its been let's see..five days since we broke.
but somehow its seems so much longer.
perhaps the whole process started way before.
i think roughly two weeks before we officially broke up.
i didnt realize it..but i was losing the feelings i once had for you too.
now on hindsight.
i realize that all the actions you took.your attitude and sorry to say.
the way u treated me.
pushed me away from you.and u did hurt me.more than even i thought.
but that's okay.
u made the right decision in not continuing.
and that is probably the best thing uve ever done this past 2weeks.
u had your reasons for treating me the way u did.
and yes..i wont blame u for it.
i dont believe u hurt me intentionally.but u did all the same.

many people have been telling me so many things the past few days.
but it all rounds up to the same conclusion.
some things are meant to be kept a secret.

allinall.
things are still super awkward between us.
u said u want to avoid me.
that's your choice.
not mine.
i suppose we do need time to cool down.
but im just asking u not to be so cold.
if not we'll never be friends again.
dont give up on our friendship.
i still believe in us being friends.
so yea..im holding on to that hope.

im getting over you.
i know uve gotten over me.
i think id need more time.
but it'll turn out the same in the end.
thinking it through.
this is really the best you have to offer.
thanks for not letting us continue when u felt you couldnt commit anymore.
because u are right.ultimately.i dont want to feel cheated too.
thanks again.

let's be friends again.

i may not say it quite as much as i should
but when i say i love you darling
that means for good
*lies.

12:04 AM