my.storie

2006-04-12T13:54:00.000+08:00

retail therapy works wonders, bring on the stripes. and while i'm at it, i still want those shoes and that zara top. so many things to buy, ern when're we going on our spree? the shorts that i've wanted since forever :)

jinxd, yes finally back. i miss you babe, coming to stayover this wk? let me know

2006-04-11T13:35:00.000+08:00

ignore that last post. so many things've happened over the past 4mths. i don't even know where to start, so i shan't.

you stirred up this sleeping heart of mine (i've forgotten what it's like to love)

2006-01-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

MOVED

2005-12-27T12:38:00.000+08:00

christmas is over
but there's always new year's to look forward to
im really glad that i spent it with my loved ones
family and cellkids
really thank God for putting u guys in my life
one more round at new year's alright ((:

till then, you've got all my love

2005-12-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

photogs from last night c3'o1/o2

with mel and jing

us minus en min

the girls. five wonderful years of friendship

*
i had a good time ((:
thanks guys
must catch up ASAP okays!!

2005-12-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

the only love i ever knew i threw it all away

and i can feel you breathing

and it's keeping me awake

can you feel it beating?

my heart's sinking like a wave

i can feel you breathing

it's keeping me awake

could you stop my heart?

it's always beating

sinking like a wave

2005-12-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

TIS' THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY!

an early merrychristmas to all!

haha i know its really early

been shopping so much so im really in the mood.

so yeah to all out there

dont party so hard alrights!

its time to do more more shopping

tatas

2005-11-30T06:59:00.000+08:00

well well since my tboard's down its obvious im not the only person who hates the retards
anyways might as well blog since ive got nothing to do
its 7am in the morning and ern and i just got back
firstly the bouncer at cocco absolutely sucks! we hate you okay
who the hell lets FIVE girls in hello. asswipe
but i have to say gotham was fun (:
too bad it didnt last long enough
then again its never enough
okay anyway ive gotta go pack before going off to potongpasir for camp
next five days guys oh gosh hellp! ugh
hope i get to squeeze some sleep time in
tatas

2005-11-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

von! sorry my board's really screwed. if it helps i can still read your tag on my board history okay.. it appears ((: haha anyways all the best for the rest of the papers. shall we go out someday when you're done with As!?

nik. i tagged your board. miss you.

2005-11-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

kids. okay so what if you are older than us. are you acting your age? would someone who's above seventeen years old go to another person's blog and spam? i mean seriously who are you to call us kids when your actions arent reflecting your age. if you profess to be someone older than us, then please. do the mature thing and stop this insolent nonsense.

2005-11-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

okay im not angry or anything at the spammers la hello. i seriously have better things to do than to argue with you guys ya. and no point being sarcastic and all cos it doesnt really say much about you guys. besides if your aim is to make my friends think otherwise of me, it isnt really working right. so why dont you guys just go and enjoy the hols rather than to waste time tagging my board. i mean seriously if im so detestable to you guys.. then er i dont really understand why you guys still bother coming to read and spam? i do know what wanton is and if im wanton, you're a poulet okay. end of story.

2005-11-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

no one calls us crescent bitches and gets away with it. even if we are bitches it isnt for you to call. since you appear to know so much about us, why dont you give us details about yourself. oh yeah.. about meeting up. give us a date and place. we'll be there. dont call people bitches for goodness sake. look at what you're doing.. if you saw someone doing what you are doing now. wont you call that person a bitch. BITCH.

2005-10-30T19:49:00.000+08:00

didnt plan to blog so soon but my tagboard is becoming some spamming centre again. anon one - whatever you have to say you can just say to my face okay? no point doing this cos it doesnt really achieve anything at all. anon two- thanks for defending me and all but its really unneccessary. if you dotn retaliate it'd help this thing stop much much faster. so yeah.. thanks and all but to the both of you. just disappear okay. i dont appreciate having unknown pple tagging anyway.

maxine!
hello dear! was nice seeing you today. RELATIVE VELOCITY is fun. haha anyways you study hard and do really really well for your Os alrights. sarah well done! proud of you. sixpointer freak. ebel study study study. stop cursing mrloh too!

xac
HELLO XIAOAN. cat! haha miss 4s1. must arrange for a class gathering soon okayyyy! (:

2005-10-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

havent blogged in ages just didnt feel like it i suppose
anyway so much stuff have happened since 21st sept, its kinda impossible to update everyone. so yeap those who know whats been going on knows la huh. yeap will start blogging soon. tata

2005-09-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

life has been going well. havent felt so peaceful for a long long time. its amazing how i feel pretty contented with life now. not going to bother about other things for now

if only.

2005-09-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

life's been fantabulous this past week special thanks to ern xin and nik

maf on sat (ern's bdae) was fun eh
although the post-party drinking session at your house got a wee bit out of hand at least i didnt do or say anything i majorly regret but sun was just awful fraught with tummyaches but still it was great. we should do that sometime soon again! not to forget our killer bridge sessions

work's been extremely tiring. but i can feel that im getting the hang of it and the kids are really all so sweet. i look forward to seeing the little girls especially. all angels! (:

yesterday was the best ever. thanks so much to ERN for accompanying me all over town and shopping with you is the best ever. we are permanent shopping buddies. hurry end promos! i'll be waiting with my second and larger paycheck alrights! not to forget xin and my virgin clubbing session. so many incentives for you to study reaaaallly hard. (p/s i want the watch and baggggg!) - yes im still high on it

truckloads of love to all. hope everyone's week was as good or even better!
(:

2005-09-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENteenth BIRTHDAY ERN!!
i know you like your present very very much
i like it too!
teehee
(:

080605 070905
these are the special dates that are shared by ern xin and i.
ears tongues navels and what not
love ya both loads! XD

2005-09-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

hockers i really miss you all
need to spend more time hanging out
):

2005-09-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

thanks to ern for helping me twig out all the little grossities in my blog (:
now its waay easier to type!
anyways everything's been going well.
teehee (:
i love pink!

2005-09-02T12:03:00.000+08:00

its all going well
(:

2005-08-31T11:29:00.000+08:00

h.u.m last night and the next two
no not the 'ham' in char kway teow
(courtesy of hamster cheeks)
hehe

holiness.unity.mission
was super tired after work yest
so sermon didnt really stick in my head
worship was good though
no work today so will be in better spirits today
going out later to prob catch a movie(s)
and dinner! food! yumm.
so thats something to look forward to
the good company too
(:

yeap thats about it
oh yeah good news!
ive no work the whole of next wk
so can meet up okay
hockers/t6
whee

does age matter?
randomness

2005-08-30T11:28:00.000+08:00

today marks five

eating icecream in the rain
talking at the uncomfortable bench
did you enjoy it?
cos i did.
though we spoke about not so happy stuff
but it was meaningful!
mmhmm so dont feel neh anymore okay?
if not you'll make me feel worse
(:

gerald
you KUKU. hope everything's been going
okay for you and hmmhmm. update me
soon alrights

joel
hey dear! yeah i do miss you lar. where
have you disappeared to. rrah. no more
crapping and chitchatting for like SIX
hours with you anymore till after promos lar
haha. you better behave yourself and i'll
call you soon okays? love (:

i want to stay longer
i made you a place
a place within my heart

2005-08-29T09:38:00.000+08:00

been feeling nehneh the past few days
i think its just me and the weather
rrah

anyways sorry to SLUG about yest okay
really lar. we're horrendous people-readers
you and your cute hamster face
TEEHEE (:

i lied. i still have the card
so just maybe i'll pass it to you before hum
see how lar

got a weird feeling
when you told me certain things
rrah. this sucks
):

im getting into you
because you got to me
in a way words cant describe

2005-08-26T11:34:00.000+08:00

been in a nehneh mood the past two days
thanks SLUG for bearing with me
you've been great company.
(:

looking forward to tonight
i need to get out!
your appalled voice at the suggestion of my
walking to my stop 'all alone' was funny lar
teehee

im getting into you
because you got to me

2005-08-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

hockey training was killer
really died lar. so unfit
gotta start running and all again
doesnt help that my left knee goes
KERACK every time i walk.
ow ):

that's enough for tonight

2005-08-24T12:05:00.000+08:00

cause ive been housing
all this doubt and insecurity
and ive been locked inside that house
all the while you hold the key
and ive been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me

2005-08-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

JOHAN IS NOT AN ASS. FULLSTOP
NOT AN ASS.
SORRY LAR.
HAPPY NOW!?
TEEHEE
(:

2005-08-23T11:33:00.000+08:00

you make my head spin

work yesterday was a killer
my first official day teaching
almost died. im so not teacher material

multiplication checklists
number board
flashcards
marking class work
marking homework
doing corrections and marking them

AH. doing all this while timing the kids
individually. all six of them doing it
simultaneously is enough to drive me nuts
okay stress lar stress.
haha but im sure it'll get much easier
so yeah

looking forward to tmr and fri
tmr training so i get to see all you guys!
fri im going with my class for the concert?
hwing hang in there!
sat going out with tim sum
this week is a fun-filled one!
(:

LA
yes lar no more phone
next week or end of this week will have alr
i'll msg you alrights
see you next week or smth?
you let me know when you're free lar

tim
hello! u tagged in the end
heh x)

hwing
i miss you TRUCKLOADS too
dont sound so sad okay?
i'll give you a big hug when i next see you
(:

all those days you waste on me
i just can't let you go

2005-08-22T09:26:00.000+08:00

you're truly something special

2005-08-21T17:01:00.000+08:00

hello people!
ah in a pretty good mood today
firstly there's no work!
not that im dreading it that much tho
haa

had to drag myself out of bed this morn
sleep took forever to come last night
just had so much things on my mind
pensieve anybody?
hmm.

church today was pretty okay
well beks and i sorta fell asleep during sermon
we conked out all the way til communion
how truly horrendous right
this is a warning for me to rest well sat nights
hear that hwing! so no clubbing on sat!

clem talked to us during cell
everyone's a tad worried about whats next
hope we dont get split up though
not when we're finally talking more
):

lunch at subway AGAIN
is this some cell lunch ritual guys!?
tskk
headed to town with a few of them
met even more church pple in town
some crazy mass meeting lar
and yes now we know topman sells porno tees!
HA

turns out johan stays like 2 streets away
we alight at the same stop
and he knew all along
what an ass.
but it was very nice of you to walk me back
all the way to my door somemore
literally. thanks lar.
not an asshole anymore eh?
your gentleman points full marks
teehee
hope you didnt get locked out!
the sugarcane is good okay.
(:

im sleepy
off to bed
nights!

am i reading you correctly
or is it just my imagination
somehow i think we're possible
and then again maybe not
you tell me

2005-08-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

ahh its very amusing to read all the silly tags
thanks guys for bothering
and to be honest it brings a smile to my face
(:

rotty
you dont be an ass okay
hahaha i AM in love with irwin
this cutest smidgen of a boy who's p1!
he's reaalllleee cute! i'll try to take a pic of him
teehee. im not a paedophile ah. unlike sil-ASS.
whoops
xp

pig-nik
happy now!?
you crazy lianzy. im gonna miss you TRUCKLOADS
wait till i upload the PIG-NIK pics of you
eating the WATERMELON at stussy.
heh. just you wait!

LA
hey girl! where have you disappeared to.
hardly see you around anymore
heard you've been very naughty recently
we gotta meet up asap okays?
love (:

xinyun! - corner pavement babe
hello! we definitely gotta catch up
so much stuff's been happening these few days
hopefully we'll bump into each other soon
i'll keep an eye out for an AC uni clad babe ya!
haha

hwing hwing! sounds familiar?
imagine the derek sound effects
haha our date for this wkend is cancelled
due to SOMEONE's clubbing ah. tskk
you take care and i'll meet you this wk alrights
(:

whew. okay im done with all the replies
feel as if ive typed so much already
im pretty tired so i'll try to keep it short

work was pretty okay today
did ALOT of packing. haa im like a pro already
was starving as 230 drew closer
thanks mom for the CRUNCH! and apricot bar
managed to chat with tomo on the way to the stop
turns out she's my ghimohian [nik!] senior
and xiaohui's my crez senior
what a small world eh?

hockey match was good
we won! haha and manjit was quite amusing
although he did question my disappearance in trngs
so yeah.
IM GOING FOR WEDNESDAY TRNGS
FROM THIS WK ONWARDS OKAY! (:
my motivation being i can see all the cj pple.
andie!! sugarcane here we come!
teehee

dinner at fareast chicky rice
at this rate im really gonna grow fat lar
oh wells. never mind.

okay this was a super long entry
im off to bed soon i think
MY MSN STILL ISNT WORKING..
help!

do you know that im in love with you

2005-08-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

okays im majorly annoyed with msn
why isnt the bliddy thing working!?
rrah
havent been able to get in for TWO days
work lar please work

work was okay today
seemed super loong
did mostly packing packing packing
saw my cute boy too!
IRWIN - he's gonna grow up to be some hotstuff
(:

yayy! the wkend's here
so far got work and pw tmr
not sure when im meeting hwing and tim
we gotta finalize our plans alright!
you two give me a call asap!!

yep was planning to go for trng initially
i guess i'll go next wk then
missing the hockers already

p/s. i did cry when i re-read the msges ):

i may be in love with you
but the possibility of 'us' is like me
scoring straight As in my A levels

1. there's no way i'll score As
2. my A levels have cease existence

aiyar whatever lar.
humbug

2005-08-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

short one before i chiong to work
ive made up my mind
im in love with you
(:

2005-08-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

spent a tiring day with the tanclan
went to springclean our new house
okay it isnt that 'new' but thats its name
now i think im psycho
who gives their houses names

just pretty shagged
cleaning is no joke
i totally appreciate all those domestic help now
thanks aunt roslyn!

but on the bright side
i managed to spend quality time with the brats
meaning nat zai and zeke
haha i discovered i still love my bros after all
beneath all the naughtiness
they're still my kid bros
although i pity mom for having to put up w them 24/7
im looking forward to tomorrow
it means work and then the wkend!
time to meet up with people

hwing dear
we've got a date this wkend!
dont be so down and im proud of you
you had to make a real tough decision
but i'll always be here for you
plenty of hugs and pampering in store too!
miss you loads babe
love (:

callie poo!
i miss you much
we shall meet up this coming week alrights

andrea
we're definitely doing the sugarcane ritual
perhaps this coming wk i'll go for trng
[it requires loads of motivation] shh

silas!
sil-ASS. haha happy belated bdae!
my timing's always so off la. irritating
hurr

bliddy msn isnt working
just as well think its time to call
tim sum anyways. HA.
dont kill me!!

anyways bliddy is a word i learnt
from natty boy's new storybook
how truly fascinating.
its so bliddy funny! xp

2005-08-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

went back to school yest and today
took class photos!
something to remember them by

today was more of catching up time
thanks to all for the bear and the lovely book!
they were FANTASTIC SUPRISES.
thanks guys
(:

it'll prob be awhile before i go back to school again
not any time soon in fact
its so faaar
but we can still meet to play hockey and all yeah

today and tmr no tuition
so it'll be pretty slack i hope
tho i might be taking up the job at coffeebean!
yeap. i'll see how things go la

righto. thats about it
to all those having promos and prelims soon
study hard and all the best okay!
this is the last chance to chiong already
(:

2005-08-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

so many changes have taken place
so many weighty decisions made

anyways tmr will be my last day in school
officially. unofficially it seems like forever
since ive gone for lessons
hah

started work today
i never knew marking could be so tiring!
plus a trip to nuh for my checkup in the morn
really quite tired
must be all the lazing about at home

i must not let the next eight months be wasted
im working but i need to do smth meaningful too
like going on a mission trip.
thinking about it seriously since mom mentioned it
i'll let God show me what path to take!

to the hockers :
you guys have been a great bunch
really really had the best time ever
all ready to meet you guys to play hockey
ANYTIME (:

to my class oneteeosix :
its been a helluva time with you crazy pple
chinese class has never been so fun!
chiong hard for promos and we will
finally have a class gathering after
that okay!

to my cj friends :
im really sad and sorry to go
you guys are really the best
you're the ones who make cj what it is!
keep in touch!

to HWEE YING :
haha happy not? special girl ah.
you better keep me updated!
and i wont break our deal to meet weekly
love! ((:

2005-08-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

ndp's over and im glad!!
well not really since it means ive got to start studying
oh well thats life huh

monday's class outing didnt go as planned
jan bren and i ended up eating chickyrice
while the rest ate kennyrogers
we all couldnt get tix for charlie
so everyone was pretty disappointed
dont be guys!
im sure we'll catch it soon okays
(:
met the hockers to eat at taka
yumm.. we're such FOODIES
but its okay
i like eating. -chomp!
haha. reese's peanut butter cup!
90cents each okay. whee
then rushed home to change
had prayer meeting
im so sorry God for falling asleep
feel truly guilty. sigh

national day was pretty fun in a weird way
guess everyone just couldnt wait for it to be over!
felt like a pig cos i ate so much again la
met heinhun before going to school
ate fried mars bar.
kfc and MORE icecream at padang
after that sherm joel heinh and i went to eat PRATA!
food (:

well the training today is very much needed
i think im going to die. the unfit me
rrah.
anyways think im off to study with the hockers
maybe play some hockey too! warmup for manjit
hahaha see ya all

btw, thanks tim for that email
it was very sweet of you (:

2005-08-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

been looking forward to this long wkend
so far its been very fulfilling
PARTY time is here
but its innocent playing
no clubbing whatsoever
not ready yet

anyways
been having oodles of fun since i got out
catching up and bonding with pple
t6 girls. hockey girls.
wonderful moments spent together!
pigging out alot too
subway gelare mackers
fats are here
rrah

fri was spent at jared's place
your party was real fun
haha all the retardedness coming out
hope you like your presents! hahaha
made new friends too
new bus taking buddy on 156

sat was catching up time
caught CHARLIE with tim
its seriously good
good enough to eat
yumms.
clementi cinema rocks!
where else can you get tix
on a wkend for SEVEN buckaroos!
had dinner at bt.timah market
the carrot cake and sugarcane rocks.
went down to town to meet
heinhun sherm jan and some others
ate yami yoghurt and did alot of talking with shifu
it was a good day
(:

today was spent bonding with my cell
the guys had a soccer match
so lunch was at out much beloved tbp
hahaha
considering we played one man down
3-2 was pretty impressive!
well done guys (:

anyways.
tmr's either t6 girls outing
or a semi class gathering
either way it seems VERY promising
kenny rogers and CHARLIE again
or if the guys have their way.. the maid.

wow.
it such a long entry.
shall go watch tv now.
cya!

2005-08-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

what hurt more than losing you
was that you didnt fight to keep me

no room for regrets here
after all it was a learning experience
for me and you
its a choice
to remember the happy times
instead of the sad
its over and im glad it is
no point lying
but there was good in it while it lasted

something my dad said today struck me
no one's perfect
everyone makes wrong choices
some having a greater impact than the other
however all we need is conviction and commitment
to see it through as best we can

conviction and commitment

id like to think i had it
im sorry to say i didnt
not when it was about us
but it isnt too late
i can learn from it
and it will get better next time

meanwhile
thanks to you
you taught me many things about myself
even i was unaware of
my flaws and many imperfections
thanks for making me strive to be a better person
no regrets. not ever

2005-08-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

been ages since i blogged
anyways thanks to all who visited me
if not for you guys it'd have been a very lonely week

oh wells
im glad im out of nuh all the same
was getting a tad restless

its back to school
and somehow im finding it so pointless
we mug so hard
to get a few more years of mugging in uni
is it worth it

seriously with my combi
i cant see where im headed
didnt go to school today
had a good talk with dad and mom
well looks like i wont ever be a j2
hahaha
yeap its pretty much almost confirmed
i'll prob go to poly next year
mass comm seems like a more appealing choice
so sorry people
but till then
its MUGGING for promos!
just for me.
to know that i can do it still.
rrah.

lunch time.
chomp away.
cya

2005-07-25T13:20:00.000+08:00

playing hockey

studying

schooling

God

LIVING

2005-07-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

today felt like a blogging day.
so i decided to put the hiatus on hold.
just for today.

been spending alot of time at home.
either in bed or in the loo.
puking my guts out.
sighh. this sucks.

skipped school on tues.
managed to get thru wed and thurs.
came back early on fri.
slept a total of TWENTY-FIVE hours the past 3 days.
thats alot for me.
considering i slp an average of 5-6hrs a day.
owells. im sick. thats my excuse!
stomachflu-ed. arghh.

sorry girls about yest.
ptm went better than i expected.
rents arent unhappy or anything.
or maybe its cos ive been sick.
thanks to andrea nik see aud.
u girls took good care of me yest.
sorry i kept running to the loo.
just had to get it out of my system.
sorry for leaving you guys in the
evil clutches of the LIBRABY BOY!
how dare he!!
i'll get back at him next sat. grr.
bully my girls. he's screwedd.
hahaha.

okay tummy's acting up again.
cya ard. i doubt i'll be in school tmr.

2005-07-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

hockey

study

hiatus

2005-07-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

class sucked big time today
didnt realize how LONG it was
and its by far my shortest day ever
tmr till FIVE. ndp FIVE-TEN.
okay shoot me!
yeap.
im getting worried for mids results.
acc to what mrswinters said.
we're pretty screwed for hist.
acc to jasminetan.
lit was EXTREMELY MEDIOCRE
econs i didnt even pass mcq
rrah.

okay.
after school went to citylink.
with nik and the lovebirds. HAHA
kaypoh silas.
mmhmm.
then met tubbygoon.erntub.pam.hweetub.
dinner was fun. bingo too!
ern i swear the ac guy can disappear..
the whole bus thing.. freaky! =/
hahaha.

okays enough updating.

to anon:
well.. rumours are never true
thats why they're rumours?
i dont know how they came abt
and i dont really care either
i dont even know many j2 guys
cept prob e hockey guys
so there's no basis for that weird rumour

well.
i dont know whether ure a guy or girl
but i got my brows done at fareast!
its SIX BUCKS. let me know if u want the name ya
the lady's very nice (:
mmhmm.

oh ya.
i guess it does put me in a bad light
but when pple know me
i think they can decide for themselves how im like
and maybe u should too
at the end of the day
who i am inside is all that matters isnt it
(:

loveTUBBY (:

2005-07-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's
no one there but me and
nothing of what we were at all
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's
no one there but me and
nothing left of what we were at all

yayy!! dreaded exams are FINALLY over!
mmhmm. this is good.
play hard till results're out and i get
grounded for life. haha.
must lock myself at home to MUG.
this sucks.
but till then..
its time to PARTY!

okays. pretty tired from ndp rehearsal.
rrah. its quite retarded what we're doing.
but still less embarrassing then the guys!
sorry guys! haha.

yeah. hit a really rough spot this aftern.
thanks nik and the rest ya (:
mms.
did my brows today!
nikki!! we're so bitchy now.
and brian and his bitchy AHEM.
shh. i shall not say.

SHOUTOUTS!
wow.. whats w the sudden influx of cellkids.
hi guys! hey chloe.. loveyouloadstoo.
happy fifteenth! (:

hey anon.
dont u have better things to do.
the stuff u say isnt true.
but then.
its really up to you to believe me eh.
ive said what i can.
cheers.

2005-07-02T10:41:00.000+08:00

okay exams are almost over.
just left math on tues.
im pretty screwed for the rest.
just hope i pass lit or smth.
i might drop hist if it continues like this.
such a heavy subject.. just not my thing.

anyways.
other than papers.
its been a great week!
still feels like holidays.
im not looking forward to waking at 6.
my sleeping hours are so screwed now.
ahhh!!

yeap.
went to chma yest with daph and e rest.
it picked up once the aircon got fixed.
and from DeCon onwards huh.
had a good time last night.
thanks guys! (:

i miss hockey.
havent touched my stick in ages.
actually waiting for trng to start again.

mmhmm.
thats about it i guess.
hang on everyone!
we'll play hard after math :D

2005-06-20T17:28:00.000+08:00

hey people
its been a tough week.
been trying hard to get myself
to focus on mugging.
but somehow, it just isnt happening.

3 days to go till lit.
4 till hist.
ive barely even started either.
getting quite worried.
owells.
i'll just give it one last shot this wk.
and pray for a miracle.

anyways.
just a shout out to the spammers.
can you guys please stop it.
if you dont respect the pple who read my blog.
please at least respect yourselves.
saying these things serve no purpose
except to humiliate yourselves.
dont you have better things to do.
come on. stop it okay?
its really uncalled for.
does it give u some sort
of perverse satisfaction.
if it does.. there's smth
seriously wrong with you.

yeah. enough said.
back to hist for me.

nikki : cheer up okay.
its depressing seeing my
sunshine so sad!
i know the stress can be
pretty unbearable now.
im sure things'll turn out
fine! think about the shopping
we're gonna do after midyrs! (:

to everyone else :

thanks for being so nice on my tagbrd.
really appreciate it.
if there's one good thing that's
resulted from this whole fiesta.
its me knowing who my true
friends are. (:

ben: shitsticks! mon!?
okay. maybe dinner this sat?
try to work smth out asap.

2005-06-17T01:11:00.000+08:00

okay.
there's been SOME progress.
now i know its not you.
so yea..
sorry for jumping to the wrong conclusion.
and yea.. thanks for clearing things up
(:

2005-06-15T13:02:00.000+08:00

okay.
the thing is im not so sure whether
its who i thought it was anymore.
that's why i dont want to say
anything to her just in case it isnt.
and if it is you. [a]
im really sorry but i honestly
didnt stare at you on purpose okay.
and seriously.. no one's gonna 'steal' [j] away from you.
im telling you now.
he's yours.. now and forever.
i never did like him the way u do.
so yea.. no worries.

that's about all i can say.
as to why some pple can hate me so much.
well.. i cant say anything can i.

2005-06-14T09:33:00.000+08:00

hey newest anon.
what you say does make sense.
and in some warped way i do agree with you.
maybe you should also take a look at the entry before this.
i think i did make an effort to solve things peacefully.

yes its true that i might have offended some people.
but it was unknowingly.
i didnt do it on purpose.
i'll change it if i could.
but how can i change smth i dont know exists.
how can i offend someone that ive never heard off.
natalie from rj. sorry i dont know her at all.
and she said she heard of me by word of mouth.
doesnt sound too convincing eh?
why would she come bitch here if she 'heard' abt me?
i mean.. seriously.

i think ure being fair and i appreciate it.
so guys.
okay.
we'll stop retaliating to any spammer okay?
just ignore them and talk about other things.
honestly, they dont deserve our attention
if we fight back, they will to.
that's what they want.
and they're not going to get it anymore.
yeap.
so hopefully things resume to normal.

(:

2005-06-12T14:16:00.001+08:00

HELLO NATALIE.
hmm.. that big enough.
gotten the attention you wanted?
okay.
now.
i'll count to 5 and then u get the hell outta here.
because uve really spent more
than enough time on my board.
dont worry.
people in cj will be definitely be mentioning
your name for many weeks to come.
mentioning or cursing i dont know.
but owells.. at least ure being MENTIONED.
isnt that what u want.
to be 'recognised'

i sort of pity you.
what sort of life do you lead.
tagging the boards of
people whom u dont even know.
are you that ostracized in rj.
i mean like.. IF you do have some form of an outside life.
i think uve neglected it long enough.
and please stop going ard tellin pple ure frm rj.

firstly.
it doesnt show from the way u behave.
secondly.
i think your rjcians will be ashamed to have
someone as low as u in their school.
[if they even know u exist.]
but its okay.
your wish is our command.
we'll make sure ure wellknown not only in CJ
but in your precious RJ too.
[if you're there. which everyone seriously doubts]

so what if ure in a top college?
it means you are study smart.
what's e pt of being so smart.
if you dont have a LIFE and friends.
seriously..
we've got our own lives to lead.
that's why we dont go ard spamming pple's boards.
what makes u even worsT is that
no one even knows you.
u claim that u know all this thru word of mouth.
well.. that person's mouth has to be really dirty.
in addition to the fact that
half the stuff u comeup with.
is totally and completely ridiculous.
seriously.. u arent getting to me at all.
call me thick skinned.
but when u started insulting
everyone else who defended me.
it really became ridiculous.
we come online to read
your tags as free entertainment.
it has given us many laughs.
but i think its really time to take a bow.
and get off the bloody stage.
before the audience's patience actually wears thin.
after that.. i cant begin to describe
what sort of action we'll take.

ive obviously have friends
who think otherwise about me.
in contrast to your blasphemous statements.
so mayb they DO KNOW BETTER.
considering they actually know me.
u said u wanted to think that i was nice.
well.. im telling you now.
that im not.
im not nice when pple talk rubbish about me
and they dont know when to stop.
im not nice when pple scold my friends and
come up with totally retarded statements.
yes. ure a retard.

finally..
even if i did sleep to get to ANYWHERE.
it really isnt any of your business.
why're u so interested anyway.
do u like have a secret lesbian fantasy or smth.
ure really sick you know. horny bitchh.
i COULD have gone to ac if i wanted to.
and for whatever reasons i chose to stay in cj.
thanks but i really dont need u to
publicise how smart pple in cj are.
because we are definitely savvier
than u in more ways than one.

oh ya.
just a last note.
u said u wont talk to pple with above ten points.
well sucker. i didnt get above ten points.
so what say we meet up and have a talk.
since i have fulfilled your intelligent requirements.
im not sure u satisfy mine tho.

anyways!
to ben. zee. delusion.
nik. bri. daph. victor.
eeli. yuko.
brendan. don
and the mysterious :D - who're u!

thank you guys so much!!
love ya loads.
((:

2005-06-12T14:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO NATALIE.
hmm.. that big enough.
gotten the attention you wanted?
okay.
now.
i'll count to 5 and then u get the hell outta here.
because uve really spent more
than enough time on my board.
dont worry.
people in cj will be definitely be mentioning
your name for many weeks to come.
mentioning or cursing i dont know.
but owells.. at least ure being MENTIONED.
isnt that what u want.
to be 'recognised'

i sort of pity you.
what sort of life do you lead.
tagging the boards of
people whom u dont even know.
are you that ostracized in rj.
i mean like.. IF you do have some form of an outside life.
i think uve neglected it long enough.
and please stop going ard tellin pple ure frm rj.

firstly.
it doesnt show from the way u behave.
secondly.
i think your rjcians will be ashamed to have
someone as low as u in their school.
[if they even know u exist.]
but its okay.
your wish is our command.
we'll make sure ure wellknown not only in CJ
but in your precious RJ too.
[if you're there. which everyone seriously doubts]

so what if ure in a top college?
it means you are study smart.
what's e pt of being so smart.
if you dont have a LIFE and friends.
seriously..
we've got our own lives to lead.
that's why we dont go ard spamming pple's boards.
what makes u even worsT is that no one even knows you.
u claim that u know all this thru word of mouth.
well.. that person's mouth has to be really dirty.
in addition to the fact that half the stuff u comeup with.
is totally and completely ridiculous.
seriously.. u arent getting to me at all.
call me thick skinned.
but when u started insulting everyone else who defended me.
it really became ridiculous.
we come online to read your tags as free entertainment.
it has given us many laughs.
but i think its really time to take a bow.
and get off the bloody stage.
before the audience's patience actually wears thin.
after that.. i cant begin to describe what sort of action we'll take.

ive obviously have friends who think otherwise about me.
in contrast to your blasphemous statements.
so mayb they DO KNOW BETTER.
considering they actually know me.
u said u wanted to think that i was nice.
well.. im telling you now.
that im not.
im not nice when pple talk rubbish about me
and they dont know when to stop.
im not nice when pple scold my friends and
come up with totally retarded statements.
yes. ure a retard.

finally..
even if i did sleep to get to ANYWHERE.
it really isnt any of your business.
why're u so interested anyway.
do u like have a secret lesbian fantasy or smth.
ure really sick you know. horny bitchh.
i COULD have gone to ac if i wanted to.
and for whatever reasons i chose to stay in cj.
thanks but i really dont need u to publicise how smart pple in cj are.
because we are definitely savvier than u in more ways than one.

oh ya.
just a last note.
u said u wont talk to pple with above ten points.
well sucker. i didnt get above ten points.
so what say we meet up and have a talk.
since i have fulfilled your intelligent requirements.
im not sure u satisfy mine tho.

anyways!
to ben. zee. delusion.
nik. bri. daph. victor.
eeli. yuko.
brendan. don
and the mysterious :D - who're u!

thank you guys so much!!
love ya loads.
((:

2005-05-31T21:03:00.000+08:00

okay.
been thinking about the spammers on my tagboard.
and honestly.
what do you guys hope to achieve
by bitching about me?
its like.if you dont like certain stuff i do.
or ive been behaving in a manner
that portrays a certain image.
let me know.
and i'll try my best to do smth about it.
and everyone can be happy..

what's the point if all you do is just bitch?
you said you're just being honest here.
so thanks alot for the honesty.[no sarcasm here]
but if it isnt helpful at all then why bother?
i mean things like looks and face.
its not like i can help it right.
did u get to choose what face you want?
if i were your friend..
ud be singing a different tune now eh?
so i just hope that everything's gonna be okay.

there isnt a need for you guys to insult my friends.
after all.. they do deserve credit for being good friends
im sure u guys are good friends to your own friends too
why make things so unpleasant for everyone?
im sure at some point or another.
even in your own life.
not everyone's happy with everyone.
when ure unhappy with your own friend
you'll talk tol her nicely and try to work things out.
i know that im not your friend.
but perhaps there might be a better and happier way
to solve your unhappiness with me?
id really really appreciate it

i dont exactly relish the thought of having pple who hate me this much.
and perhaps that can be changed.
we can talk about what problems you have with me.
and if nothing can be done.
at least u'll know that i tried.

im leaving my email add here.
the anons and sheryls and vans.
this is prob e most sensible thing to do.
for all of us.
you guys wont be so annoyed and all.
and i'll stay out of your way.
but i cant stop staring at pple
when i dont know who im staring at.

let's just put an end to this okay?

tabbie_2077@hotmail.com
mail me or add me on msn.
i know u guys find it degrading to talk to me.
but just give it a shot..
thanks

2005-05-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

er.thanks but no thanks.
u reali give me too much credit.
i wouldnt be able to 'seduce' any guy if i wanted to.
and frankly i dont.
because im not interested in guys.period.
get your facts right girl

secondly.i recognize the phrase act gummy and yes.
the whole staring thing.
i know where this whole thing originated from.
and i know who started it.
and for the last time.
there isnt anything btwn jon and i.
we're friends and will always be friends.

honestly
.you guys have nothing better to do than to come here and insult pple?
like hello. brian n nik loser couple.
i can think of quite a number of pple who'd
dearly like to punch the daylights out of you for saying that.
like there's anything more loser than tagging someone's tagbrd.
someone you dont even know personally.
who are u to make judgements about me.
would u like it if someone made judgements about u
without even knowing you

how would u know wad's going on in hockey anyway?
im sure the hockey guys can atest to the fact that brian isnt a hockey outcast.
and yea.
wad right do you have to ay that kind of things about pple you dont even know?!
like come on.
GET A LIFE

you dont like my face.im really sorry.
the only reason why i might STARE at you guys is because
a certain SOMEONE shld know very well the
rumours that she spread about me.
and i knew about them all along.
dont think its a secret that u make up reali weird
and completely ridiculous stuff

and its been clearly proven that i do have friends eh?
so yeap.thanks alot for your input.
but i think its time for you guys to leave.
if the guys dont enjoy my company and think im shameless.
please ask them to tell me.
if its just an assumption made by you
den well..find someone to tell me.
someone who knows me and thinks im shameless.
thank you

2005-05-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

why do you have to make things so bloody hard.

rrah.
ok.im ANGSTY today.
yes sheryl.
of course i cant be happy ALL the time.
that's just abnormal right.
so.i try not to blog when im unhappy.
because some pple blog when they're unhappy.
some pple prefer to blog when they arent.
and yea.
i dont reali feel like blogging when im down and out.
so yea..
if it appears that im pretending to be happy.
erm.hmm.what can i say.
why would i want to pretend to be happy?
that's kinda weird isnt it?

owells.
spent the whole day filing and trying to read my gp notes.
not very productive as im online now.
rrah.
shall try harder tmr morn before chi.
after filing all my notes.
i realised that i have A HELL LOT to complete for midyrs.
hist takes up two freaking thick files.
and there's lit. [hopeless]
econs. [consistency of 5 for everything]
chinese [c6 please.just c6]
math. gotta learn MI!
so there.
i think im gonna screw up real badly for midyrs.
must study during the hols.
irony.holiday lessons.and holiday mugging sessions.
what happened to HOLIDAYS?

shall go back to watching teevee with zeke.
tatas.

2005-05-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

you've moved on.and so have i.
cheers to a great friendship! (:

today was a great day!
took 7 as i tried very hard to study hist.
to no avail of course.
fell asleep.rrah.
been super tired these couple of days.
running myself ragged. ):

thanks ern for coming down for nightstudy tnite!
i LOVE the toiloo and BUUS photos.
so does NIKKI. (:
whee.so pretty all of them.
haha.we're trigger happy girls.

had some pretty funny msges today too.
okok.i'll try not to go overseas for too long ok!
den i wont have that 'effect' on you.
the will be missed effect.
HAHA.
only YOU know what im talking about.
rrah

yeaps.
i shant HAHA too much.
actuali having a real bad tummy.
since before pe. =/
having a SPLITTING HEADACHE too.
someone rammed a sledgehammer into my head.
OUCHH.

extremely long day tmr.
pw period.shudder.
hist makeup til 3.
trng after that.
night study again.
someone please SHOOT ME.
ok.
might not go to school tmr.
feel real shitty.

byee

2005-05-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

with love comes unending pain and heartache
maybe i should have never loved you.just maybe

its been a fun and LOOONG wkend
managed to catch up on my sleep!
((:
that's cause for celebration.
HAHA

had a nice lunch at home.
ling and kelvin.
come back to spore soon aye?
i miss my cousin! (:
met bren n syahidah in town.
we didnt really do much.
but we got to settle some pwgrp conflict.
so that's all good!
met jon at taka after that.
shoes were nice..
too bad they didnt have your size!! ):
try another store!!
haha.
spent about 45mins walkin ard wisma w bren.
ure damn stuVid la.
flash and splash incident.so UNCOOL.
the topshop gags were the BEST.
hot shots and THONGS.haha.

met xuan (: on e way home.
we went to my place so i cld change into comfy clothes.
went back to his place to slack w his tennisbuddies.
funfun.sa tennis girls have hot bodies!
lols.i shouldnt be saying this about pple of e same gender.
sounds so wrong.

yep.
came home after that.
been SLACKING tons.
think i'll finally do my hist outline.
colac notes.mountainloads to read.
someone please rescue me ):

yesyes.
night study tmr.
STUDYY!

2005-05-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

i couldnt keep my eyes off you.did you notice me?

whee.had a pretty busy week
fun but tiring!
anyways.wed and thurs were spent well.
had good night study as usual.
getting the hang of it.
extremely productive i must say (:

got horrendous bruises from volleyball on thurs tho.
found out its cos ive got iron deficiency!?
rrah.so ive gotta take these HUMONGOUS iron tablets.
eee.
haha.

fri was a FAB day.
thanks MOMMY.
quoting nik : MAMA. -cheenky wayy.
haha.got a nice new skirt.shorts.
had a PEDICURE.
felt SO pampered.haha.
girls outing rules.

caught star wars on sat night w jon.josh n grace.
sorry ern!!reali wanted to go!
yeap.star wars was good!
hey.thanks for e icemilktea.
haha.u OWED me.
and the journey home was perilous eh?
missing e bus TWICE.
and that super scary tree branch thingy!!
cj stop is scary at night!

haha.today.
met bren and watched star wars AGAIN.
im broke as a result.
had pw meeting w jeanette after.
wasnt too bad.haha.
we three had fun aye?
dont worry too much.im sure we'll sort evrythin out asap.
met gerald and ben at BURGERKING for dinner.
ben u know the whole world there eh?
haha..but yes.
stop bullying me! /=

yesyes.pretty tiredd.
need to catch up on my sleep.
prob having pw meeting AGAIN tmr.
im so hardworking its scaring me.

anyone up for STUDY BUDDIES this june hols!?
i really need help.and i need to MUG.
rrah.
let me kno alright! ((:

i cant stop thinking about you.
all the time.
this has gotta stop.
once and for all.
uve obviously moved on.
and so should i.

2005-05-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

you smiled at me and it took my breath away

rrah rrah rrah.
i have absolutely no idea why im blogging at 1231am.
this is INSANE.

haha.anyways.the past week has been fun! ((:

SATURDAY!
wowee.it was really fun!
it was selfdeclared 'crescentian day!'
after studyin w ernie at yummylicious secret recipe.
i came home and like 20mins later.
xin came and i was her MAID.
had to cook freaking noodles for her lunch.

rushed out of the house thinking i was gonna be super duper late.
thanks for taking 7 all e way to town with me.
had alot of fun gossiping and catching up.
miss crescent LOADS.

rrah.
daphh n i had to get the tix first.
JON!!the guy is NOT supposed to be late.
haha.
wanted to eat but there wasnt any time!
thank goodness we didnt.
we'd have puked it all out eh daph?
AMITYVILLE HORROR is really quite good.
spooky.scary gutless good.haha
many thanks to jon for bringing your sweater.
((:

went to fareast to eat yummy fried mars bar!
met 'chakra' joshua and grace on the wayy.
haha.den daphh pangsehhed us to go home.
so it was the four of us.
walking around 'shopping'.
heh.

bus ride home was funnily fun.
xuan was on e same bus as us.
so i had to alt talking btwn them.
how retarded!

SUNDAY.
oh gosh.
spent the whole day out.
rrah.but yea.it was good.
been a long time since i was out with my parents.
thanks daddy for buying me my PRETTY GREEN BIRKS!
acc to xuan: WHAT!you paid EIGHTY NINE-NINETY for a pair of slippers!?
haha.excuse me.its BIRK!
lalala.
supposed to study w xuan at secret recipe.
but bumped into ern.
so yes.girl gossip time again.
sorry xuan for being a horrendous study partner.
owells.it was fun sitting n talkin at my hse staircase anyway.

MONDAY.
hist test was horrid.
night study was fab.
LIVESTRONG CLIQUE- muchlove (:
the four of us are mad.
lying in the quadrangle looking at pretty stars.
haha.
but we still managed to do work.
yayy.

TODAY.or rather.YESTERDAY.
extremely good day.
haha.math test wasnt TOO BAD.
at least can pass i hope.
altho the guys lost in terms of goals.
they played like true winners today!
it was super exciting and over too soon.
rrah.
night study with the boys was madness.
we actuali played hockey in the quadrangle.
haha.but i did more work than yest.
so im pretty happy.
cant wait for tmr's night study.
bonding sessions.heh.

anyways.
overall.its been a WONDERFUL day.
someone smiled! ((:

tmr!either movie watching with the hockeyguys and LC.
or if not its time to come home and get rid of those eyebags eh kaii?
before they become bigger than my eyes!haha.
but i know.its still gonna be a good day.

one word to descirbe how my life has been so far.
FANTABULOUS! ((:

2005-05-14T15:46:00.000+08:00

tensions are running high.
everyone's unhappy and frustrated.
whats going on?
owells.
im sorry for what i said on my blog.

anyways.
life's been GOOD.
been catching up with old friends.
making new friends.
and having a ball of a time.
didnt realize how much i was missing out on! ((:

yeap.
had a busy yet probably the best week ive had in a long long time.
mon : had fun walking around town with you!
searching for THAT NIKE SHIRT.
yami yoghurt rocks my socks.
tues : spent a wonderful 45mins talkin to you on my class bench.
HAHA.pocky rocks! ((:
dinner at MOS was FAB.
i cant believe some of the insane stuf we talked about.madness.
wed : thanks for waiting for me during my HORRENDOUS maintenance.
chickenrice at fareast.friends cafe at cine. -wedges with MELTED CHEESE
we never did stop eating and laughing did we? rmb e WEIRD MAN.
whee.glad we got to bond over that four hours! ((:
thurs : had fun just tallking to on the phone with you.
its been quite awhile since i had that much fun.
stop SNORTING!

FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH
it wasnt exactly a very happy day at the start.
BUT we had tons of fun at fareast didnt we?
haha..clique FINGERBANDS. -pink.black.yAllow.blue.
my THUMBTACK earrings.
meeting ERN and !!grace was a plus point of the night.
miss you loads dear!
SCARLET SILOUHETTE was really pretty impressive.
sevenbucks well spent.
sorry i didnt join u girls for dinner in town.
thought i had to go home.

haha.
but NO.
i met you at my busstop and we had fun catching up.
literally talked under the stars at the playground.
thanks for being so dependable! -muchlove.
whee.. and no.stop telling your mother ure responsible.
cos you're not!
and CONGRATS for breaking the RJ record of 5nil wins!
u SCORED! ((:

TODAY!
was FANTABULOUS.
met you to 'study' at ten am in e morning.
im proud of us!
considering the fact that we were on e phone till 130 last nite!
haha.but yes.
we did manage to get some work done.
and the FAMILY IS WEIRD.
fathead man.

going out with jon n daph for a horror flick n dinner soon.
sighh.
can life get any better..

BLISS (:

time for self-reflection.all of us.especially youu.

2005-05-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

uve changed so much.
i lost a boyfriend, a much loved one in the process.
a few others lost a good friend they trusted and cared for.

im not sure i even know who you are anymore.
its not just me who thinks uve changed.
even your close friends do.
please think about what ure doing.what ure saying.
every action of yours is pushing all your friends further away from you.

you used to be really nice.caring.sensible.SENSITIVE.
what brought about this change in you?
i really dont know.
its as if someone just came and snatched the real u away in the middle of the night.

think about all the things uve been saying recently.
i know im not perfect.
ive got no right to criticize you and point fingers when im guilty of this too.
but ure not a child anymore.
uve got to think before u speak.
everything u say has repercussions.
u cant say whatever u want and expect pple to understand or to forgive u.
using the adiv stress is not an excuse for your bad behaviour recently.

i talk to you.look at you.
but i no longer recognize you.
in a split second.
i lost all feelings for you.completely.
every tiny bit of it.
i cant love someone i dont know.

we all still care about you.
its not too late to make amends.
but please.stop before its too late.

think about it.

2005-05-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

been thinking alot the past few days.
its been let's see..five days since we broke.
but somehow its seems so much longer.
perhaps the whole process started way before.
i think roughly two weeks before we officially broke up.
i didnt realize it..but i was losing the feelings i once had for you too.
now on hindsight.
i realize that all the actions you took.your attitude and sorry to say.
the way u treated me.
pushed me away from you.and u did hurt me.more than even i thought.
but that's okay.
u made the right decision in not continuing.
and that is probably the best thing uve ever done this past 2weeks.
u had your reasons for treating me the way u did.
and yes..i wont blame u for it.
i dont believe u hurt me intentionally.but u did all the same.

many people have been telling me so many things the past few days.
but it all rounds up to the same conclusion.
some things are meant to be kept a secret.

allinall.
things are still super awkward between us.
u said u want to avoid me.
that's your choice.
not mine.
i suppose we do need time to cool down.
but im just asking u not to be so cold.
if not we'll never be friends again.
dont give up on our friendship.
i still believe in us being friends.
so yea..im holding on to that hope.

im getting over you.
i know uve gotten over me.
i think id need more time.
but it'll turn out the same in the end.
thinking it through.
this is really the best you have to offer.
thanks for not letting us continue when u felt you couldnt commit anymore.
because u are right.ultimately.i dont want to feel cheated too.
thanks again.

let's be friends again.

i may not say it quite as much as i should
but when i say i love you darling
that means for good
*lies.

2005-05-07T13:05:00.000+08:00

rrah.
the girls thrashed sa 3-0 yest.
but i didnt get to see it. )=
ocs was horrendously boring.

anyways.
guys..dont be too disappointed or discouraged alrite?
play hard for e rest of the matches!
u guys can do it!! (=
i really dont know what to say.
bleah

anyways.
050505.
scary date huh.
but yea..
after e past 2 days.
i think it really is for the better.
and yea.
i think ure happier too.
so yeap..
u made the right decision!!
yep..still friends right.
(=

neek!
hope your back gets ok soon..
poor girl.
drea!
ure the best!
love loads (=

2005-05-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

yep.
been busy attending hockey matches.
and being a dilligent girl by doing 'most' of my homework.

anyway.the past week was pretty bad.
but yea..hopefully things will be better from now on.
yep..im crossing my fingers.

anyways.
thanks to NEEK and DREA!!
u guys really are the SUNSHINES in my life.
whee..
reali LOVE u both loads.
thanks for being there the past week or so.
yea..
u guys are the best!

yep.
to you*
will you ever take hold of my hand again.
we're gonna get thru this tgt.
but i need you now.
let me know.

love loads.
go CEEJAY go!

2005-05-02T13:01:00.000+08:00

Don't leave now
Not yet
They're words
I Regret
And I'm sorry
Somehow
I only Wanted to make you proud

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
How could I let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

When you told me
I froze
It still echoes
In my soul
Please forgive me
If I didn't say
I love you
Every single day

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
How could I let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love

If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice

Nobody told me we'd only get one chance
I didn't know that our time would turn so fast
Why we have to say goodbye I don't understand

If I could only let you know
I'd give up everything I own
For just one more day with you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
How could I let it pass me by
If I make every sacrifice
To bring me back your love

If only we could live twice
I could not let it pass me by
Nothing I give to sacrifice
To bring me back your love
If only we could live twice
If only we could live twice
We'll meet in another life
If only we could live twice

2005-05-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

i hope everything's gonna be ok
we both made this decision together
and it's probably the best arrangement now.
just dont think too much and conc on ur matches yea.
just BE HAPPY.

i'll be waiting till u tell me to stop

Thinking about thinking of you
Some of the time thinking it was due
Yeah thinking it was due.
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the oneThe one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the oneThe one

Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
Never went far
Needed to go far

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the oneThe one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don’t know where we are going no
I don’t know where we are going no

Wake up for coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we’ll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end

Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the oneThe one
Made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the oneThe one

I don’t know where we are going no
I don’t know where we are going no

So take a look at me now

2005-04-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

to you.
im sorry for everything.
my behaviour the past two months.
my selfishness and insensitiveness.
i didnt realize what i was doing was hurting us.
now that i know.
im gonna try my best to change okie.
i know what's wrong.
and i really dont want to let u go.
im so afraid that ive lost you for good.
im just holding on to that tiny thread of hope.
i hope things will improve in time to come.
i really really am praying hard.

and yea.
i hope u havent given up on me totally.
im just so sorry.
things are gonna change.
i promise you*

last chance.
you know what i mean.

2005-04-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

pretty tiredd.
its been a trying week.
well.i havent been doing too well in anything.
got 4/25 for my hist essay
i deserved it considering it was last minute work.
but yea.still.

had econs test today.
another thing screwed up.
what hwing said today is right.
at the rate we're going we're gonna end up getting retained tgt.
and that's an UNTHINKABLE outcome for me.
because in the event of that happening.
i will be going to POLY.
even now.
sometimes i wonder whether i made the right decision to stay in jc.
but yea.
since ive made my choice i gotta stick with it.

anyways.feel super fat and unfit.
didnt have hockey trng the WHOLE week.
got trng tmr from 7-8 + 10-11.
weird timings i know.
blame it on the pitch booking.haha
but yea.at least i'll be getting some EXERCISE.
i swear ive got to cut down on my eating.
plus the daily western thing's gonna kill me.
okie.YONG TAU FOO from this wk onwards.
onli western ONCE a week or smth.heh.
i MUST stick to it. (:
i shall aim to lose FIVE KILOGRAMS from this day forward.
-stacks of cellulite!!-

yepp.
well.
im trying to be a good girl and lead a well balanced life.
but it really is tough.
i dont want to be like the past 2 yrs in crescent.
playing and being irresponsible all the way.
it was by God's grace that i was able to catch up.
but i wont be so lucky all the time.
A's arent smth to play with.
gosh.if i can make it thru midyrs first.
sighh.

anyways.
the workload for hist is killing me.
i need to do so much catching up.
econs.hist.math!
tests coming up on monn.
im pretty screwedd.
well.
i will STUDY HARD for the next tests.
yesyes.i promise myself.

ok.that's the work aspect.
hockey trng tmr.
my stamina sucks.
i shall start running again.
plus napfa's nxt wk anyway.
haha.plus the losing weight too.

yep.and HIM!
sorry ive been such a BRAT and so difficult this week.
childish too.
i shouldnt vent my frustrations on you.
it really isnt your fault yea.
just gotta learn to cope with my workload stress first k.
we havent seen much of each other.
i miss you loads.
thank goodness for monday. (:
it got me thru the week.
loveyou.

2005-04-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

im sorry i havent been blogging much.
its just that by the time i get home im so tired.
either from training or just school itself.
it seems everyday i return home to an everincreasing pile of hw.
i know its my fault that i didnt do it over the weekend.
but honestly.i needed that break.

now it seems as if every weekend will be like that.
i still dont regret taking four subjects.
just that the workload is killing me.
im grateful for the detentions yest and today.
i truly needed the four hours to do my work.
gp and hist is killing me.
all the readings.tutorial outlines.reflections.mindmaps.
its crazy.
i know i shouldnt be complaining.
after all..it was i who chose this combi.
and i did have ample warnings.
but still.
i guess i'll just have to put in more effort.

siong.
im sorry if ive been neglecting you.
it seems as if im the everbusy one.
i end so late nowadays its impossible for us to go out anymore.
we cant even meet after school.
now i treasure the morning bus rides even more.
i miss you.
this is how life is gonna be like.
and we'll have to adapt.
but i hate it.
sighh.
im sorry.

yeap.
shall try to update as often as i can.
prob about once a week.
sorry guys.

nik and bri.
be happy!
treasure the time u have with each other.
this is just great.
love u both loads.
(=

2005-04-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

heyy pple.
sorry i havent blogged in SO long.
just that ya..so many things have been happening and all.

anyways.
just a little update.
im in oneteeosix.
i take lit.hist.math.econ.
yesyes..mugger 4sub class.
but we're suprisingly slack and ANNOYING to teachers.
as we have pple who simply cant stop yakking away.
haha.whee.

i love my class.
and i thank God that i was posted here.
staying in ceejay is even more worth it.
at least im i enjoy being with my class.
im happy with my choice of subjects too.
everything has been going great.
(=

enough of gushing.
its whining time.
first hockey trng on mon was killer.
my thighs/calves hurt everytime i move.
even if i just press it.sighh.
unfit me.
even my tummy hurts when i laugh or cough.
hmmph.

yep.anyways.
happy 22days!!
whee..

im keeping an eye out for another 2 special pple.
u guys know who u are.
what's taking u so long?!

2005-03-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

im sorry about last night.
for giving you such a nasty shock.
you didnt deserve it.no one does.
im sorry i hurt you.
thanks for giving me another chance.
i'll make it up to you.
and i wont ever hurt u again.
at least i'll try not to.
im sorry.

i see how much u love me.
how much u're willing to give up.
its scary how one's life can change in a moment.
when u realize that someone else has become a big part of your life.
you.are.definitely a HUGE part in my life.
and im never gonna let u go again.ever.

i love u. (=

2005-03-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

heyy.
second day of orientation.
im SO glad im back in ceejay.
but ya.
orientation is BORING.
well.
cant wait for mondayy.
when classes are out.
hope i get certain pple who'll make the class great.
Tupid.yes you brendan.hee.
and sherman too.plus christine.
wad is this.canoeing class.

yeap.
i love youu.
and seeing u and being with you.
it just feels so right.
thank you.

2005-03-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

happy first week.
got posted back to ceejay.
yayy.

im a happy girl.
had to fight with my parents not to appeal to ac.
but thankfully.they're okie w me staying now.
im excited.
gonna have some old friends coming to ceejay too.
whee..

cant wait for tmr.
bus-taking rockks.

((=

2005-03-18T19:15:00.000+08:00

im backk!!!!!
haha.bet everyone missed me right?
gosh..im egoistic.
cant blame me..
its the company i keep.
ahem.brian.ahem.

lols..anyway.
malaysia was O.K [read:boring]
the place was sorely disappointing.
even e sea sports were down cos the waves were mini-tsunamis.
too bad i didnt get washed out.
im mad.i know.
basically spent e last 2.5 days doing nothing.
i couldnt wait to come back to singapore.
everyone should know whyy..hehs.
but yea.i dont think ive ever missed anyone this much.
boohoo.
yep.shall not tell everyone the details.
he knows.and that's good enough. (=

haha.
yeap.im a happyhappy girl.
15o3o5.that's OUR date aint it.
now 15's our fav no.lols.
its wonderful being with youu.
cant wait to see u tmr!!

ladeedum.
that's abt it.
missed everyone.
4 more days to posting results.
hope i get posted back to cj.

(=

2005-03-15T10:51:00.000+08:00

yepp..
havent updated for 2 days.
but yea..
the past 2 days have been absolutely amazing.
that's all i can sayy.
haha..

we went out on sunday.
and we had great fun.
watched spongebob.
whee..its MADE FOR BRIAN.
lols..ate yummy cafe cartel.
we both agreed that e fish tasted funny aye?
lols..
den like little kids we played at my playgrd.
gosh..sitting there and talking was funn.
spending time with you always is.

monday was supposed to be studyday.
i thought it was going to be boring.
but yea.spending a day with u can never be boring huh.
we spent a total of 7hrs sitting at bk.
altho we both had our own stuff to do and we didnt talk much.
i still enjoyed ur presence.
just us enjoying some quiet and doing real work.
((=
its e simple life that pleases me.
the small things.

yepp.the lib was funn.
teehee. [making dinosaurs out of chicken bones!!]
makes me wonder how old we are at times.
i enjoyed every minute i spent with you.
right til u walked me to my stairs.

haha.
but the best part has to be what we talked abt after u left.
we clarified some stuff that was just getting in e way.
and i think it really helped.
we're gonna stop being worrywarts!

no words can ever describe how i feel when im with you.
thinking about u brings a smile to my face.
im afraid that all this is too good to be true.

2005-03-12T16:52:00.000+08:00

lalala.
tabi is a very very happy girl.

12marcho5.
whee.
haha.

last night i went to sleep sad.
i woke up sad..
so i told brian all about it.
and yes..thanks for being so encouraging.
u really did help ya.
(=

yepp.
but today was a wonderful day.
haha..yes.
im happy that things turned out this way.

now im just a little scared.
scared that its too soon.too fast.
scared that u'll regret what u said.
scared that i like `[you] too much
scared that i'll get hurt.again.
or worse.hurt`[you]
but im not gonna think abt all this.
because at e end of e day.
its `[you] that matters.

im just gonna take things step by step.
cya peeps. (=

2005-03-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

ladeedum.
today has been a great day. (=
from start to finish.
great in the morning.
ended even better than expected.
only a few pple know what im talkin about.
dont read too much into it OK!
heh.

yepp.today has got to be e slackest EVER la.
went to sku for NE[national education]
was in the grandstand from 830-130.
just plonked myself there and read and talked and enjoyed the breeze.
din attend a single lecture or tutorial.
must have been the slackest student there.
at least i din zao halfway right!?
cos i cldnt BEAR to miss my after-sku-program.
heehee [brian..looks familiar?]

yepp.went to watch lemony snickets at cine.
with matt.brian.nikki.siongie and i.
it was a good show.im glad i watched it.
too bad we cldnt watch boogeyman.
heard its real good.
the 4 of us MUST go catch it sometime ok?
nikki..i'll scream with u! (=

yea.den nik left for tuition.
we went from cine to heeren to paragon.
quite fun actuali.
met cheryl.silas.ena.ming.
a whole bunch of pple.
yayy.

yeap.den we went home.
haha..shall not reveal my little secret.
lols..brian.u better shut up!
lalala.

yesyes.tabi's a happy little girl.
although i think im just thinking nonsense.
and reading too much into it.
lols..just let me daydream abit yea?
after all..no harm rite.

im def takin bus to sku tmr.
haha..shh

*feeling cheeky.

2005-03-09T20:18:00.000+08:00

hey people.
well..ive been having a blast this week.
been skipping school.din go yest.or today.or tmr.
even my teachers have given up on me..

yea.now that this last week is coming to an end.
i'll just say all that ive wanted to for quite awhile.

its been so hard to let go.
i know im gonna start crying again.
but it cant be helped.
all of sudden im getting to know all these crazy and wonderful pple.
and they're all gonna be in cj.
is heaven playing a trick on me.
just when i made the decision to leave..
he has to just put all these pple worth staying for.
but i cant go back in time.and i cant change my decision.
i know that im quite confirmed going to ac.
and yes.i cant help but be scared.

going to go thru the whole process again.
why didnt i choose to stay in cj where i know pple.
and where i love u guys SO much.
its because i know i'll regret it if i never gave ac a try.
i know that i'll never be able to leave with the 'what ifs'
and yes.because i was seriously unhappy once upon a time.
but that all seems so long ago.and honestly..
its no fight against all the great pple im gonna miss so much.

i havent been going to school.
im sorry nikki and brian.
i want to go too.
but i just cant bear going and seeing all of it.
knowing that soon i wont be a part of it any longer.
because i know that no matter how good life is in ac.
i'll always miss u guys.knowing that i was once part of it.
that i could walk freely in the school.
the fun i had.
the times ive spent at the grandstand.
how many friendships have been forged there.
and i'll just break down.

deep down.i love youu all.
and im surprised that im finding it so hard to let go.
in crescent.it was inevitable.
now i dont know if i made the right decision.

friday.
might be the last day i go to school.
but yes.i'll cherish it and i'll miss it.
sighh.
i wish it didnt have to come to this.
i just cant let go.

[timmy.elsa.alex.brandon.dalun]
these last few days with u guys have been unforgettable.
taka and e cine foodcourt where we left our names.
im sorry i only got to know u guys so late.
but im glad i did.
i will miss you guys so much.

[jacob.don.brendan.cedric.hiangtee] -sevenplusone.
i love u guys so much too.
for being so sweet and fun to be with.
i just cant put the fun we've had into words.

[1t35]
there were sad times.
but everything's ok now.
and all that's left are the happy and fun times we've had.
we reali are a great class.
im sorry i cant be part of it.

[everyone else ive met in cj]
im just sad i cant walk ard in school seeing u guys.
or shouting.or even whacking u all.
im gonna miss life in cj so much.
cos its the one and only.
never has there been a place like it.
and never will it be replaced.

[brian]
uve been the bestest pal a girl could ask for.
uve seen me thru my ups and downs.
and there have been more downs than ups for sure.
im SO glad and thankful i made a fren like u in cj.
i'll miss calling u during ur street soccer breaks.
disturbing u and making fun of u.
doing stupid stuff and talking nonsense during lectures.
im sorry that i might not be a good friend at times.
or very encouraging.
oh gosh.u just called me.
sighh.brian.im gonna miss u.

[nik and daph]
ive been thru so much with the both of u guys.
i reali cant imagine being in a diff sku.
but yea.im so sorry.
i really am.
i dont want to split up from u guys at all.
i really dont.
i just love u both so much.

oh gosh.im dying.
cant type.bye

2005-03-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

heyy pple
okie..today has been a good good day.
i was pretty disappointed yest morn when i wasnt able to get my phone.
cos its like a freakin 438 after the 100 voucher starhub gave to us.
my parents consoled me
sayin they'd get me some cheap phone to tahan for 3 wks.
BUT..suprise surprise.i got it TODAY.
haha..turns out i can get e phone if i upgrade mom's line.
so i just paid 268 in e end.
huge diff right.

so yea..pple im usin e same old number.the 9023 one..
so just drop me a msg or smth alrite!
dont prank me or anything ah!!haha..

yeap.to the too-free-taggers of my tagbrd!
why would siongie or victor be jealous!?
no reason to la..
sevenplusone is like a freaking buddy gang.
haha..its not as if im dating one of them rite?!
haha..weird pigs

cheelim: very nice of u to drop by.its TABI okie!haha..cya ard! (=

2005-03-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

heyy pple.
okie..today was a good day!
haha..slack as usual.
woke up at 10plus.
its been awhile since i woke up that late.

went to meet sevenplusone at newton.
sorry to say i was an HOUR late.
im SO sorry guys.
was just too engrossed in my book!
haha..
although today 3 were missing.so it was fourplusone.
yeap.

the guys played mahjong as usual.
yawns.
i had fun talkin online and singing out-of-tune.
whee..
drank alot of yummy orange.juice[read:alcohol]
but yea..it wasnt lethal.
still no effect.
slept like a pig on heng yi's super duper comfy bed.
whee.

im a lucky girl.
i bring luck to e pple who sit beside me when they play mahjong.
it helps that heng yi's the SHIFU.
but yes!it's still thanks to me u won like FIFTY-FIVE buckaroos!

whee.
yummy mexican food for dinner.
met darl'amelia too.
she's so cute (=

getting my phone tmr!
finally..
i cant wait.
everyone msg me tmr aftrn to let me know ur nos okie!

sevenplusone rocks.

2005-03-04T10:46:00.000+08:00

ive just got smth to say to anon.
honestly..i dont know why ure doing this.
your tag led to so much misunderstandings.
sorry qiqi for blaming you.
but i now know it isnt her.
and i honestly dont have a clue as to who u are.
if uve reali got smth to say to me.
u can jollywell say it to my face.

read this and remember it the nxt time u try to do smth so stupid.
tagging as anon isnt gonna get u anywhere.
instead it just shows pple your stupidity.
that's what the box for 'name' is supposed to be
or cant u read?asshole.
just go far far away.
because u cant get to me again.
i wont let u.and neither will my friends.

WADSUP.WASSUP.get this.
go get your spelling checked-out.
do us a favour.
and get lost.

2005-03-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

heyy.
today was a SUPER slack day.
honestly..i just slept damn alot.

xin.tim.and i met jacob and andrew[cute little boy!!].
at e ac front gate.
assembly was just assembly.
we didnt see the rest of them after that.

then we met jolene and wendy and her other frens.
bren came and we just slacked the day away.
i swear.first it was e void deck.
we got questioned by a teacher.
thanks to tim's pro talkin skills..
we didnt get caught at all..
some nonsense abt dropping bio.

yeap.den we went to e cafe to pig out and sleep.
we spent like a total of 7hrs in ac.
6 was spent sitting or sleeping.
the cafe sofas rock.
we had like mass sleeping.
all of us over the sofas.
how slack.

went to town to watch hitch after that.
its super niceee!! ((:
haha..whee.
i wanna watch again man.
met boyfriend.jellyfish too.
the rest went to eat after that.
tim n i headed home.
where we slept on e bus. AGAIN.
sigh..i swear we are pigs la.
slept like how many hours today.

anyways.matt/sheeni/merrill/christine/claudio.
sorry u guys cldnt come.
cant believe the canteen vendor snitched on u guys!
its funny but weirdly mean at e same time.
but u guys are going tmr so its not so bad rite.
we dont have school tmr!!
cos the j3s r getting their results!! whee ((:
cant believe it.
jacob/bren/don/cedric and i have not attended any lessons since mon.
ok..maybe we did attend one or two.
but ya.this week has been the most fun!
it feels the most like first 3 mths is supposed to be!!
thankew guys.

yeap..shall just slack somemore.
parents are out.
so no phone shopping again.
tmr!!cos there's NO SCHOOL.
yes.

love loads.

2005-03-02T18:19:00.000+08:00

whee!
ok..yesterday and today have been RECORD good days.
haha..must be thanks to the cat.high guys!
lols.

anyways.
left sku at 930 yest.
it was foodfest day.
starbucks.kfc.yummy prata.taka foodcourt.venezia.cafe cartel.rocky masters.
oh gosh.
i think i put on at least a KILOGRAM!
haha..ouchh.
but yea.it was pretty slack.

today was the BEST ever!!
thanks guys!
haha..the whole bunch of us left sku aftr double gp.
went to play LAN.
my like first ever time.[thanks don!]
but yea.it was super fun.
i think i screamed the whole place down!!
haha..sorry boys.

den we ran in e rain.fell aslp on e comfy bus.
though we were f.r.e.e.z.i.n.g
but yea.
supposed to watch white noise.
we ended up going to heng yi's hse!
so jacob.ced.heng yi.xiandi. cld play mahjong.[obsession]
while hao ming.bren and i slacked.
i actuali fell aslp while e 2 others played football on e com n ps2 i tink.
gosh.im a pig!
but yes..im some pple's lucky star!and some pple's jinx!haha.
yea..

anyways.i reali had a great time today.
cant believe i onli met u guys when we're gonna leave cj.
where have u guys been this 2 months!?
damn.but yea.
gonna miss u pple loads man.darn.

might be crashing ac tmr.
this SUPER gigantenormous grp of us.
so fun!

hope i can get my phone tnite..
keeping my fingers crossed.
did i mention ive got a beautiful new fridge.
hehs.

tabi is a very happy little girl! (=

2005-02-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

ok..
thanks to siongie and victor.
everyone now knows what i got for my os.
but yea..its ok!
cos im pretty happy and satisfied.

honestly.for a person who slacks as much as i do.
i dont deserve it.whee!
but yea..TEN.
its like an impossible dream.
tabi.ten.haha.
everyone cant believe i got it.
but its understandable.
i cant either.

so this is to all the slackers!
we can do it!
just gotta study hard when it's time too alrite!?
haha.
to my jrs..please dont follow me.
u'll regret it.ha.
im just one very lucky girl.

so anyways.
im glad i'll be able to change combi.
whee..lit and hist.
yes yes yes.

i shud be stayin in cee-jay.
not sure..depends on what dad says.
but yea..its either that or ac.
an even tougher decision now.
damn..

cya all.
tab's one very happy girl ((=

2005-02-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

that was a rather angsty and vulgar post.
sorry guys.but yea.
under those circumstances..
im forgiven huh.

anyways.after sleeping on it.
i realised that there wasnt any pt getting hurt or upset.
because i cant please everyone.
no matter what i do.there'll always be some pple who are unhappy w me.
unfortunately..the person who tagged my board is within close range of me evryday
so yea.poor person.

well..im gonna apologize for what i said in my previous entry.
but im not gonna delete.
bcos that's how i reali feel.
no holds barred.
but yes.im sorry.
initially.i loved our class.
everyone was united and all.
but yea.
maybe im too sensitive.or insensitive.
whichever way u want it.
so things started getting abit rough.
and i became seriously unhappy.
i admit it's my fault for distancing myself from u guys.
but then agn.did u guys make any effort to be frens?
nope.

when i was upset.
sheeni.chris.sharon.
brian.hector.cheuk.jacob.
these are the pple who comforted me and talked to me.
they showed me that i didnt need to have alot of frens in class.
they are the ones that matter.

i can talk to guys.
that's just the way it is since ive been in pri sku.
its not that im despo or anything.
but sometimes guys just arent bitchy and they're easier to talk to.
i think even YOU wld have to agree.
that guys and girls are just diff.
plus our class guys are real nice.
so what's wrong with being close to them.
after all..we're all classmates and friends.

things have reached a stage where.
it'll just be so weird and awkward that it cant go back to last time.
we cant even eat during break tgt anymore.
bcos there'll be this thing in btwn of us.
so now.im just gonna ask if the person who tagged my board will say who she is.
den we'll work things out.
and yea.hopefully..everything will be better.
thanks

2005-02-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

EXCUSE ME.
i dont fucking treat the girls in our class as walls.
like hello.you guys dont bother talking to me at all?
whole day ask me to change place or arrange to go out with EACH OTHER.
you tink i have a good time in class freakin hearin u guys talk abt some inside stuff.
and honestly..look at e way u guys whisper all the time.
anyone wld tink tht ure bitchin abt them rite.

its not my fault that i talk to the guys ok.
talk.not flirt.
the guys are SO much nicer than you guys.
not nicer.just more approachable.and less bitchy.
not everyone likes our class you know.
im not the only one.
disgusting.
most of the girls are ok.
and i get along FINE with some of them.
its just a certain few pple.
and honestly..i didnt have anything against you guys.
i just felt that we cldnt click.so i left it.
but now..apparently.you guys HAVE been bitching abt me huh.
too much.

oh ya.lastly.who my cousins are doesnt concern you at all.
like hello.at least the stuff i say is harmless.
you guys talk before you think.
sometimes..it hurts.
did it occur to you that pple might take what u say to heart.
so please.just shut the fuck up.

2005-02-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

sigh.
just had a bad bad day
cant stand my class
shall just go rot and die

actuali cried today.eeks
im going mad.
freak.

cant wait to get out.
bye

tr

2005-02-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

ezekielt

2005-02-20T16:05:00.000+08:00

hello pple.
yawns.
sunday afternoon and im stuck at home
what a loser way to spend time.

haha..anyways.
going for e cj band concert at vch later.
shall zao earli if its too boring.
but im broke anyway.
so i'll c how things go..

ladeedum.
i feel much more relieved alr.
some of u pple will know what i mean.
i think cos of it i became sick.
i have e tendency to cos myself to literally become sick.
scary eh.
but i realized im always sick whenever im overly troubled.
hmm..interesting.

lols.just waiting for my parents to come home now.
they altered my nice mango jeans for me..whee
so i can wear it ltr..lalala.

anyways.this has been a bad week.
sick and all.grr.training tmr.im finally going!! ((=
haha..yeap.went to sa funfair yest.
it was pretty good but the weather jus sucked.
wayy to hot to do anything.
but yea..not too bad.

shall go slack ard and c what to wear for ltr.
ciao ((=

2005-02-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

this is to DAWN!!!
im SO sorry..
i wasnt calling u a bitch that dayy!!
so yep.hope the whole thing gets cleared up ok!
cya in school den.. ((=

2005-02-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

heya..
okie.today was a strange strange day.
it would have been a realie bad day..
but i went to ac aftr sku..so it was sorta good too.
weirdd.

anyway.
i was like half sickk and practically sleeping all e way
must be cos of my blocked nose..
din get a good sleep last nite.
i died in lectures from the stuffiness.
i swear im gonna die in my sleep tnite.
from suffocating to death!!
anyways..chem test was crap.
but its OK.cos im gonna take LIT!!
[right nik?!]

yawns.
ac was fun-ner than the last time.
chem lect was SCARY.
nik n i almost got caught..grr.
and i swear the lecturer has a poncy.accent..
haha.debby n ernpie came later.
it was a total crescent gathering!!

ern n i had fun at gm macs laughin at ugly pple.
haha..3 times of me!! whee.
and i miss crescent SO much..
reminiscing about azlin n her weird lit antics.
gosh..CRESCENT ROCKS!! ((=

ladeedum.anyway.
im feeling sicker and sicker.
wearing a stupid windbreaker..
and its only the FAN..

yeap.
trng tmr.
hope i dont drown in the pool or smth.
anyways.i love ern!! haha..
that was random. (=

2005-02-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

whee!!
okie..i cant reali see everythin im typin clearly
haha..anyways.today was a pretty good day.

math test was totally screwedd.
mrho was super nice n he was tellin me step by step.
but i was too stupid and cldnt do a single thing
blame it on my laziness.
i totally deserve it.
i hope i rot in hell or smth!!
grr.

yeap..
ern came to crash today!! ((:
whee.haha..n this whole bunch of guys from mi too..
funny thing is.
we made frens with jin[funny little boy]
dunno how we knew him
so we went to eat yummy venezia tgt!!
and he has a tiny bladder..
kept goint to the toiloo.
ern.germ n i had a blast stealin his stuf!
oh..he makes a REAL lousy maid too..[private joke]
anyways.he's mean bcos he made me tie his shoelaces for him!!
at least 5 times..eew. =/

haha..yea.
den he went to my playgrd w ern n i.
he played e twisty-turny thing which is damn cool!
and poor thing.looked so pale he had to lie down!
for like HOURS..haha.sorry!! (=

yeap.anyway.
he's crashin agn tmr.
supposed to bring a teeshirt for him.
hope i rmb.oh ya..n a blouse too!for myself!
whee..cant wait for tmr's after-sku-activities.

yep..tink i shall update agn ltr if anythin excitin happens.
whee..CRASHERS RULE!! (=

2005-02-15T10:54:00.000+08:00

hello!!
surprise surprise.i SKIPPED school today!
so untabi-ish rite.
to all those who dont know.
i dont usually skip sch.jus classes.hehs

anyways.my excuse is that ive got a terrible sore throat.
which is partially true.
in addition to my rotten knee and my arm!

whee!yesterday was valentine's day!
did u guys all celebrate it with that special someone!?
haha..nik and i celebrated it together.
how romantic is that?!

yeap.but i found out smth interestin last nite.
n its made tabi a very happy little girl. ((:
*winks
haha..all e kaypoh pple.
dont try guessing la..its pretty out-of-the-blue
okie.sorry.that was just my lameness.
after all..im at home with my mom n zai.
what do u expect rite?
boredd.grr.

yep.just realised that i ponned to escape from math test.
so i shud be studyin today.
but i left all my math stuf in sku.
shall try to ask silas to msg nik to get it for me.
maybe i'll go meet them ltr or smth.
yea..tink i'll blog more later.cya!!

oh ya.wait up.
i donated blood yesterday!!
how ouchh is that?
but it was pretty fun and the bandage was cute!
some nice pink smiley thingy.haha..
yeap.later den!

2005-02-13T15:06:00.000+08:00

hello pple!!
oh gosh.i know its been ages since i last blogged.
so super sorry but my stupid com's been down..
now that its up, my msn's screwedd.
so no diff rite..

anyways.i had a terrible week.
lost my phone..real careless of me.
i know that when the latest phone bill comes, i wont need a new phone anymore.
my parents will hit the roof! 2500 msges plus i tink..sigh.

not lookin forward to school tmr either.
confirm gonna get into trouble with mslee for ponnin econ lect.
onli 8 pple from 1t35 showed up..how bad is that!?
why are we all so naughty!?
haha..we ought to be shot.at least its in a group.
strength in numbers eh?

tmr's valentine's day.
being in a mixed school..somehow tmr suddenly has more meaning than in e past.
haha..so much for spending it with my 'loved' one.
got trng tmr..so i gues i'll be spending it with e swimmers.whee.

wow..realised that i realie havent blogged for ages.
let's see..im in cj now.1t35.
those pple who talk to me regularly would know this.

with results coming out in less than 2 wks.
i gotta start thinking of where i wanna go.
im at a loss.
not sure if i wanna stay in cj, if i do..i'd def be switching to e.lit instead.
chem sucks and so does my asshole of a teacher who happens to be a closet gay.
hmmph.

well..its either that or poly for me.
i have e feeling that this entry is way too long.
but screw it.
you guys might not even be reading till here.
but i jus gotta release some of this tension inside me.

havent been doing anything productive recently.
going out and playing.
not doing my homework or even bothering to study for any of my tests.

yeap.now its time to blabber.
everybody..please go and watch A MOMENT TO REMEMBER!!
i caught it yesterday and honestly i cried a bathtub of tears.
haha..silas can testify to that huh.
but realie..its e sweetest show ever.
super appropriate for valentine's day!!
so guys..be sure to catch it asap alrite.
we caught it by default but boy am i glad i caught it.
i do i do can wait..haha.

yeap.nothin much else to say.
oh ya..I LOVE MY DUNK LOWS!!
haha..that's abt it.

love ya'll loads.
happy valentine's day!!

2004-12-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

boo!

sorry guys!havent updated in ages.
been so busy.
or rather..lazy to blog.

well.been rotting since e os ended.
first week went fine.had to scout ard n doll-up for grad nite.
second wk went to kl w daph!
had a great time at times.sq.
e indoor theme park rocks la
haha..n the shopping! f.o.s rocks!

whee.luckily we din stay there longer.
daphh was lik 3/4 broke by e second day.
haha.i'd bankrupt my parents.heh

yepp.so dis wk helpin out at basc
takin care of e lil kids is reali fun
now tryin to get a part-time job at kumon.
mayb i can tutor e pri sku kids.
im sure e pay cant be THAT bad
plus its lik at my hse downstairs!
so convenient.haha

aniwae.bringin e lil kids to e sci centre tmr
so fun!
havent been there in ages!
haha.so jus go there n play with them
*hmm.makes me wonder how old i am

aniwae.on a serious note.
im glad i decided to help out at basc.
i feel that it has let me serve.even if its onli for a wk
yepp.plus it gives me a chance to talk to e rest
think i have grown slightly closer to rachh.
that's good!
(:

well.thanks to all u guys who've been SO super nice.
any yea.i jus cant wait for christmas.
haha

yeap.in quite high spirits.
if anyone wants to go out.msg me okie.
ive been absolutely bored to bits.
cya.

love you guys LOADS

*gerald: thanks for e shoutout!!

whee.
tabs

2004-11-17T17:44:00.000+08:00

oy!
the blasted flooble board is down.
so i cant check my tags.
sorry peeps

aniwae.os are like aaaallllmmmoooossttt over.
jus a wee bit more to go!
sigh..2 papers left.
but im in paartyin mode alr.
whee
haha..yeap.enjoyin myself loads.
in e past 2 wks.caught taxi n princess diaries.
both r jus damn funnie la.
haha

owells.dis wk is slack.n i cant wait for grad nite nxt wk.
goin out aftr a math tmr w deb.daph.e comb pple..
shall go look for prom stuf.
post prom n pre prom preps r damn funn!
we shud do it like ten times a yr.
but our parents wil go broke broke broke.

yeap..love my dress.
its dis black spag strappy thingy.
for pple in church.i just mite wear it for christmas eve
haha.yes.its that nice!!
whee..
did i mention my killer heels too!

ohh! i bought ANOTHER dress from veil.hah..my day dress eh?
n wedges frm exodus..super nice (:
yesh yesh.os nt over n im busy spendin money..tskk.
well..more to come!

shall enjoy tmr.
cya..
(:

ps. beks n shalyn
u both get well soon alrite! love ya.will b prayin for u guys..

2004-11-10T13:37:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.
yeap back agn.
deleted the bitchyy entry alr.
quite darn terrible.

aniwae.in reply to e tags!

nik: thkew! nice girl..miss u guys loads.love ya too..shoppin on 23rd eh?!

josco: yesyes..u can link me.haha..quite funnie.how wld I kno ure josco.im so blur!!!

rachyy: ure so sweet!haha..i'll do all da linkin aftr i finish my papers alrite

sarahh: i'll try to reply ur letter asap.will drop by jym aftr os k! haha..but u kno im scared of u-kno-hu. hehe..soon!

PAM!: yesh!manicure.pedicure.yayy! cant wait.colourin n highlightin too...tink im gonna do it at hollywood secrets? how is it!!?!

bahh..okie.thts abt it.
aniwae..had a wonderfully tiring but extremely fruitful day yest
went out w daph.aunt karen[daph's mom] and my own momsie!
walked so much.close to 6hrs straight! legs pain.hhaha..calf strengthening exercise

aniwaes.wenta taka/paragon[metro]ick!/scotts!/wisma
yeap..finally manage to buy my dress frm a funkae shop called veil at scotts!almost missed the dress.but yesh.mom n i haf fallen in love w it.even daddy said its nice.haha..tht says alot.but yea.
was worried tht its too casual.so it gives me more reason to buy nice accesories.xin[sophie] said its nice too! (: haha..yayy.we're the nightie buddies.yeap..our dresses look a lil lik nighties cos they're VINTAGE!

yayy.den bought killer heels frm dmk/wisma!! aahh!!makes me look TALL! its 2.5inches! or 5cm...hehe..poor gerald almost died when he heard tht.hahah..so pretty.now must go runnin to slim down my gross calves! yayy

oh well.jus cant wait for os to be over.not realie gonna study much for hist.aftr tht amath2 and sci[mcq] will be a breeze! we're almost dere
peeps..jus persevere alrite!

think of prom.pre-prom prep and post-prom PARTAES!!! cant wait
hahah..so excited.

till then..ciao!

bitchy!!

2004-11-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.
go read this okie. http://www.twisted_nerve.blogspot.com/
its like the ULTIMATE bitchyness in me revealed

most of u guys kno im norm lik tht
but oh well.it serves as a very useful warning
so ya!! i can bitch anytime!
haha..

yea..wahh.so tired now.ANGST-ridden.bleagh.
oh well..this service is not free ok.

me!me!me!

2004-11-08T20:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO pple.
im SO sorry..its been ages.i know!!

aniwaes.FOUR more papers left to go..
den i can finally play.and just rot.
cant wait!!

altho.ive been playin so freakin much recently
havent been bloggin much so i wont go into details
jus wanna say THKS to those pple hu've tagged!

i'll c u guys ard yea.
will blog more aftr e hated os!

cant wait to colour my hair n go for mani/pedicures!!
sophie's here too and we are the vainpots.
poot

haha.yeap.cya ard.

*thks to gerald for helpin me w my tagbrd.
im gonna kill u if u tell anyone my password!!!!
grr. -do i sound scary?

2004-08-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

hey peeps
okie..i totali dunno wads wrong w e dumbarse tagboard
so anione hu knos how ta fix
offer ur services asap alrite!

haha..yepp.
aniwae.todae was an er.eventful dae.
yepp.class was damn slack
and din reali do much e whole dae la
got a friggin 11 for mi lit test.sucks
yea..so shall b ideal student n redo it
n ask azlin to mark for me
`whee..

lols.tutorials got cancelled.
so wenta gm macs w jo.
actualie did hw dere. [pats miself on back]
surprise surprise rite.
saw a pri sku mate dere.
haha..tink he nt sure whether he knows me
well..he'll kno tmr den

yeap.mom doesnt want me to go back tmr.
icky woman.she doesnt mind me goin for h.u.m at nite tho
weird woman i haf for a mom ehs.

lols..yea.shall go do lit hw first.
update ltr aiights.